okay i think i officially gave up trying for this semester. seriously HSC is so easy that it seems like everyone is doing awesome... i swear to god everyone is going to get an A in these classes... theres just no point!!! also WTF is the point of making a brochure? seriously we had to make a brochure for a program that we made up.. i just feel like i'm wasting my time when i could be learning something that will be of use to me in the future.. *ahem* physics *ahem* biology.. oh well it REALLY could be worse i guess its almost over but i swear if i have to do another group project after this term. i'm going to pull my hair out 

I'm just looking forward to Vegas.. shits gonna kick ass this vacation. i dont trust myself with a wad of money and an unlimited supply of alcohol in a CASINO!

update:

on academics: soo operation 4.0 is going pretty well in the health sciences center.. i havent gotten one grade below 92 yet.. lets not get gassed but so far so good and i really CANNOT complain.. the kaplan MCAT courses are going really well too.. i'm absorbing the material better than i thought i would be.. i am sure i can own this test if i try hard enough.. 30+ land here i come... (crosses fingers)

on future plans: after meeting with my advisor and consulting with fellow pre-meds, i have decided that i really shouldnt rush into medical school and apply right away for 2007. i plan on taking post bac science enrichment classes either in UPENN, UCONN or do some masters in UMDNJ to help my chances of being admitted into an allopath school in the US. are there any subscribers to my xanga who would be interested in joining me at these cool schools? i would really hate to be alone there and not know anyone. but then again thats what i need in order to keep focussed.. must stay away from being a social butterfly and be focussed at the task at hand..

on social life: as far as the social life goes.. i havent really had much this school year. i've mostly been keeping to myself, the house people, and a few of my health science peoples. i guess its just the lack of time.. i wish i had more time to be active in PUSO.. i miss the carefree days. o well. ill get drunk one of these days and let fun ray out the basement...

uncertainty...

probably the most terrifying thing in the minds of most 4th year college students.. soo for me, the 4 years are almost up.. one more year to go.. this one will make me.. break me.. or maybe make no difference in my plans for the future.. graduation day looms uncomfortably close over the horizon and the blanket of security of being an undergrad is about to be ripped from me.. and HOLY CRAP am i scared.

for the most part of my life i've been told to be a doctor.. by my parents.. and by my closest relatives.. ive grown up in a household being exposed to all the medical terminology, parent's patients, and have been asked repeatedly "so where are you going to go for medicine proper?".. i've pondered long and hard about following in the footsteps of my parents and have had my doubts.. but being in the hospital this year for more then 3 hours a day in the health sciences program i've finally concluded that this IS the path for me.. now that its been decided.. getting there is another story

i am sure there are plenty of people in the same boat as i am.. probably even worse off.. i have decent grades but they are far from great.. a borderline 3.5 with an extremely mediocre science GPA.. and i still gotta take the mcats.. so many things to do this year and so little time...  application deadlines for u.s. med schools, foreign med schools and even plan B post bac schools.. also have to track down old professors to convince them to write me a letters of recommendation, do volunteer work, and at the same time ACE my last two semesters.. its going to be one hell of a school year.. wish me luck.

so i turned 21 today.... look out world! oh... if you didnt know already go to 244 E Houston tomorrow at Stay Lounge. me and na are celebrating our 21st bdays. uhm. make sure you have 21 and over ID.. im sure most of u got it covered.

Stay Lounge, 244 E. Houston St.